Saturday, December 24, 2011

Merry Christmas!!!

Our annual visit and picture with a different Santa was once again a success!!! Thought we might get a picture with little Griff crying, but nope, both boys once again loved Santa and smiled great for their picture!

Cash told Santa he was going to get a Finn Macmissile from Cars 2!!! Since he's been a good boy all year he just might! What did you ask Santa for for Christmas???
Hope you have been good so you might get it!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

1st Time Gingerbread Houses!!!

With everything going on in our crazy lives right now we haven't had a ton of time for Christmas traditions, or new activities that I want to make Christmas traditions. However, with Chip home from work early yesterday due to him having pneumonia and needing to rest, we did actually get to have a little family activity time and build the gingerbread village I wanted to do back on the 1st of December!!! We had a great time as a family, the boys loved eating the candy (in fact that is why there aren't too many gumdrops on the houses), and they turned out pretty cute!!! What a fun tradition and one we will continue every year from now!

Ready to get started....or rather eat the treats!
Showing off some of the candy used to decorate!
Chip getting it all started and putting the houses together!
Griff, still smiling for the camera, enjoying the festivities...and Cash loved the GREEN frosting! Why? because it is uncle Kevin's favorite color of course!!! Yes, Kevin, he did mention that at least 100 times during the night while we decorated!
Almost all put together and ready to decorate!
Anxiously waiting to start the decorating!
Here's the little village pre-decorated!
And here it is after we worked our magic!!!
Love Griffin's little smile and happy face!
Proud of our work!
Love me my boys!
Just love Griff's face!
A picture with mom - since I did most of the decorating don't have any pics of the in-process work - but man did we have fun!!!
Merry Christmas everyone!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Getting Excited for Christmas!!!

Showing off their new Christmas jammies!!!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

It's Finally Over!!!

The First Trimester of the worst pregnancy in the history of my life is FINALLY behind us. I really REALLY hope that means I am gonna start feeling like myself again and not being chained to my house in fear of dry heaving 24/7 anymore. The heart burn/acid reflux is much better, and I just hope the worst is behind me!!! At 12 weeks I expected to feel great and it didn't happen, and now that I am almost 14 I still don't feel perfect, but things are definitely getting better, so here's to hopefully a great Christmas season full of our fun traditions, with mom getting to join instead of laying on the couch and then hearing about the boys fun adventures. We have lots of plans and I just hope I can do them all!!!! Here's to a much better next few months, started off by the wonderful month of giving and thinking of our Savior!!!

Don't have many pictures from the last few months due to never leaving and doing anything fun, and pics of me laying on the couch are anything but glamorous. I think I have pretty much watched every episode of Law & Order there is, and exhausted the disney channel for the kids too!!!

Anyhow, I do get to spend 2 mornings a week all alone with this little guy. And he sure makes me smile. He is getting so big, has finally started to talk, and I love him to pieces!
Enjoying snack time of animal crackers and marshmellows! Yummy!
Daddy had a birthday and we surprised him with a bunch of gifts this year!!!! I think it may have been my best year yet for getting him gifts he liked without him knowing!
Griff playing dress up like Mickey Mouse in his friend Sam's Halloween costume! Love it!
He likes Miss Megan SOOOOO much!
Always happy, and his contagious smile keeps me going!
How cute is this little face!!!
Really, I want a girl but can't help but smile at this and think that if we are having a boy I will be lucky too as I have 2 cute ones and they make me so very happy!!!!

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Thoughts! Gratitude! And a Pregnant Woman's Complaint!

I haven't posted in awhile due to the fact that most days I am in survival mode from about noon on. I literally am doing the bare minimum it takes for me to take care of my kids, my house, my husband, and any other previous obligations I might have signed up for before this new plight of mine began! I feel like I am a failure most days at doing much good - my kids seem to suffer, my house is less than tidy (although a HUGE thanks to all of you friends who have come over and remedied that this past week!), I am in bed before 8 o' clock most nights and pretty much incoherent after 4 pm, although with daylight savings that actually is now 3 pm. But hey, I am trying. I have actually been overwhelmed and so humbled by the amount of outpouring of love that my ward has shown. The RS president called me last week and said she had heard I was sick and asked if they could set up meals. It was going to be every other day and I figured maybe 2 or 3. But no, we have 7 lined up, and other friends have called and asked if they could bring them next week too. Never having been in a position like this before I have an entire new outlook on compassionate service and my testimony of it has grown so much. I would much rather be called on to give a meal, and it has been so humbling to be a receiver of so much service. When you don't feel like you can even get up off the couch sometimes any help at all means the world to me. And boy I can't wait til I get through this time and can once again be asked to help those others who might be going through this or something else. I have a new desire to be better at service, and I know how much it can lift someones day and also benefit those giving it. For this reason I am going to be better at being a giver, and will be better at seeking those who might be in need of something!!!

So why the title a pregnant woman's complaint? I really don't have much to complain about right? Well, for my husband and immediate family they have heard more than their fair share of complaints from me the past 5 weeks....from the terrible sickness and nausea, to the ER trips that ended in more pain than they were even worth, to the constant dry heaving multiple times of day that doesn't do anything and never lets me throw up (to which I actually wish I could so at least I wouldn't just be consuming 1000's of extra calories), to having to eat every 2 minutes to not feel as sick, to being so tired of enduring the past 5 weeks of pregnancy that seem unbearable and I am starting to wonder if anything will ever change, to being devastated at missing my biggest trip of the year and my personal favorite that caused me to miss out on some of the most special things I had planned, to anything else that I feel has not gone quite as I planned it and has caused a major change to all my fall plans. Ok, so I guess I have done enough complaining. And someone wisely told me at one point amidst this that I needed to count my blessings! If I were to start by writing them down and keeping a blessings journal that I would soon see my trials were small and I have a lot more to count as blessings than I do trials. I do realize this, and I have actually started doing a thankful journal and I do realize how truly blessed I am, and how wonderful my life is in so many ways. I realize that although my timing is not always the Lord's timing, and sometimes I don't understand the why's or reasons certain things happen or certain trials go to certain people, he does know best and looking back I know that everything in my life has happened when it is supposed to, even if I don't think so, and even if I wish that I did get a lot less sick in this pregnancy.

This thought is where my complaint comes in I guess. And no, it isn't that I am complaining about being as sick as I am, although I know I have exhausted the complaining on this enough already. My complaint is for how some people respond to those who are enduring or experience the horrible sickness that seems to be one of my trials right now. I have thought a lot about this subject, and then upon reading the NieNie diaries and seeing something that was written in response to one of her posts have to just second what she said and add my own thoughts along with it. It was a post that commented to her that they were really sick of hearing her complain about her sickness with her pregnancy and how there are many women out there who would give anything to trade places with her and be able to have a baby and would gladly take on being sick, so so sick, and how her posting her complaints of how much pain she is in and how it is hard to be pregnant and sick were pretty much invalid. Her response? She asked them if they had ever been burned on 85% of their body and then got pregnant, and could relate to the physical pain alone that it does to the body, as burned skin and stretching from pregnancy is extremely painful!!! (I would definitely not debate this, sounds excruciating right?!) Then she told this reader it was her blog, and if they didn't like what they were reading then they should just stop! She can post her feelings and thoughts and is not going to change what she writes....on a side note, I have read many a post and feel she hardly ever complains and for how much she has endured she is such a grateful and inspiring person, and has every right to complain she doesn't feel well! To which comes my point being a pregnant lady and complaining about feeling sick!

Every woman who has gone through pregnancy has experienced some sort of sickness or uncomfort - whether you are lucky enough to be one who doesn't have any morning sickness at all and just is extra tired or uncomfortable, to the ones who have the sickness so bad they are in the hospital getting fluids weekly and basically hospitalized their whole pregnancy! There is a wide spectrum of sickness and the only one who really knows how bad it is for the individual is the one going through it, in comparison to their other pregnancies or illnesses. Every individual has a different pain threshold, and everyone handles things differently, and that is ok. And if some one who is pregnant wants to write about how crummy they felt or a trial they are having in relation to their pregnancy or other pain they are having then they should be able to, without being ridiculed or told to buck up and deal, or told that others would gladly exchange places with them and they need to be more grateful and not complain.

When those friends write about how hard of a trial it is to want kids and not be able to have them and how they would do anything for them and the desire is so great and they would be such great parents and have that desire, no one says anything but kind comments and expressions of love and extends their arms out to them with compassion and empathy. And that is wonderful, because that is a great desire and it is something that is so hard for some and we don't understand why and don't know the answers why some can have them so easy, and others have that trial to not get children when they want. And it is a good thing when someone shares those thoughts that no one responds rudely or tells them to count their blessings or says anything else that would be mean or hurt them. Because that wouldn't be right. And it wouldn't be charitable or loving or really do anything for the relationship with that person. It would hurt the person going through the trial and make them feel not very good!

So here is my point. It IS NOT nice for those to treat someone who IS pregnant rude by saying hurtful comments, or telling them they aren't grateful, or telling them they should just buck up, or they aren't really that miserable, or that they just don't handle it as easy as others, etc etc. These comments are mean, they hurt, and as a pregnant person who has received all and more of these comments by different people in the past few weeks at different times I can say they do nothing to help. Just because a pregnant person complains about her sickness or what she is going through doesn't mean she doesn't want the baby or will love the baby any less or isn't grateful to be pregnant. In fact, I would say in most cases none of these are true. And when she is feeling down and talks about her feelings to others the last thing she needs is the "buck up camper and just deal with it" speech! No, unless you have gone through what she is going through and can step into her shoes and really feel how she feels, you have no idea and your rude comments should be kept to yourself. If you feel a certain way fine, but don't tell her or make comments like the nienie commentor or anything else. Really, all a pregnant person wants from those she is telling her feelings to is for the other person to say I am sorry you are so sick, I am sorry you are going through that, I am sure it is no fun and is there anything I can do to help?! Really, she is just looking for someone to sympathize with in a moment of pain or frustration, and probably doesn't want a lecture or remedy or anything else back. Or at least that is how I feel and what I would like as one who is currently experiencing so much sickness and frustration! I just want someone to say you can do it and it won't last that much longer!

I can say that after being through different levels of sick with each of my pregnancies until you are one who is so sick that you find yourself wishing you would never wake up because you know your day is just going to be a repeat of the previous and nothing helps, you just don't fully understand how bad it really is. I have so much more sympathy for those who have this and endure it the whole 9 months. I have quite a few friends who that is the case for and my respect and awe of them has gone up amazing! I am only hoping right now that at least what I am experiencing and how awful I feel will actually end with the first trimester, because I don't think I could do it for much longer. So Cecia, Angie, Caiti, Angie N., Megan, and all you other friends who are so amazing to endure it longer so well, hats off to you and thank you SO SO MUCH for being so sweet and encouraging to me.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Trunk-or-Treat 2011!!!!

This year we went a little more scary!!! Cash switched what he wanted to be for the past 6 months, including everything from Buzzy and Woody, to Harry Potter, to a Pirate, to a SCARY Zombie, and to a skeleton. Skeleton won out because we all went as skeletons! He was SO excited to get his face painted with the black and white paints, and sat extremely still while I went to town doing it. He looks pretty scary!!!! He had so much fun and it was the best year yet for trunk-or-treat with him. He understood, and went up and said exactly what he was supposed to, including the thank you each time after he received a treat. Love my little skeleton. And his "bone bone dance" is something you just gotta see in person - way too cute!

right before we left the house!
I tried to get him to take a nap during the afternoon since we were going to be late but he resisted all afternoon, so the half hour drive to the church made for a great and quick cat nap!
Ready to go in and see the party!

After dinner and fun carnival games in all the rooms, it was outside to go "trunk-or-treating!"
There were some great trunks that went all out in their decorating!
Chip said next year he was going all out on ours and going to have the best trunk! This year it was last minute, but here's our gang. Chip, Cash, and Griff as my fellow skeletons, and Emma as an angry bird!
The whole group! Our family photo inside at the photo stop! You can't see my announcement too good here, and many people didn't get it, but below you can see why we all went as skeletons!
Emma the great angry bird! Loved her costume!
Cash and me, the skeleton duo! Yep, that is what you see in my tummy, a baby skeleton to be arriving next year. Baby #3 is on its way!
I have been sicker than sick this time, and earlier on then both the boys too so we hope it means it might be a little girl!!! We would love someone to dress up in frills and bows and to balance out our boy energy in the house!!! After 2 trips to the ER last week and thinking I couldn't possibly make it one more day, the medicines and drugs are finally working and I am doing much better! (hopefully that continues and I can still travel next week!) It has been very rough so far, but we are excited for another little one to be coming to our family (or at least the boys are.....and after a few more weeks I will feel more excited too!)
Happy Halloween 2011!!!!

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Carter Mountain Trip 2011! Apples and Pumpkins!!!

This last weekend was packed with fun!!! Kevin came on Friday, and after a month of missing him boy were these 2 SO excited. He took them on a walk to the park to play and they had a blast! Not sure who had more fun tho, Kevin or them!!!
They found some fun balls to play with there!
Cash was happy to be outside, and actually agreed to wear a sweatshirt - shocker!
Happy Griff!
Thanks Kevin for ALWAYS sending me pic updates of what they are doing!
Cash is in a stage where he really only wants to wear shorts and short-sleeves, so to get him to put on anything else is a miracle, and as soon as he is back inside it is back to the bare minimum for him!
On Saturday morning we made our trip up to Carter Mountain for apple picking and pumpkin picking. It was packed, but we had a great time! Here is the crew walking down toward the Stayman apple trees. The views were spectacular and it was a perfect day to enjoy the fall air!
So pretty!
Daddy testing them out!
Got one!

Getting ready to taste one!
Way up high!
Picking a bunch of stayman apples!
Griff with Emma, yes he is actually laughing here!

Griff with his favorite uncle!
Family shot (minus me since I took the pic) that hung out together on saturday!
Another gorgeous view, not doing justice!

Family shot!
So pretty!
Kev and Griff
Cute Cute Cute!!!!
The gang making the hike back up to the pumpkin patch!
Perfect day to be out!
Chip wanted to shoot a bunch of shots!
Cash loved picking out his "perfect" pumpkin!!!
View of the other side of the hill!
my boys!
Pumpkin shot w/ Kevin
So many to choose from!
Later on it was time to carve the pumpkins. While we carved the pumpkins Griff played in the of his favorite things to do in the kitchen!
Cash was SO excited to carve pumpkins!
Hard at work!
Wo! This is serious! Check out that knife!
All done!
First porch lighting!
The boys loved it, and so did Emma!
My 3 favorite boys with our pumpkins, Halloween 2011!!!!